American Horror Story 6×01

Avȃnd ȋn vedere că mă pregătesc să văd episodul doi din noul sezon American Horror Story și doresc să mă ocup de acest blog de-acum, iar o parte componentă importantă să fie cronici de filme și seriale, am zis că ar fi potrivit să ȋncep cu ȋnceputul și să scriu rapid despre primul episod al mult așteptatului nou sezon American Horror Story.

Și cȃnd spun mult așteptat ma refer la așteptat de mine și pregătită să fiu surprinsă. Țin minte ca ȋnainte să ȋl văd am văzut titlul ultimului episod din sezonul 5: „Be Our Guest” și am avut vaga impresie că „măi, eu nu am văzut acest ultim episod!”, eram ferm convinsă că ȋn ultimul episod a fost ucis personajul lui Lady Gaga si al amantului ei, interpretat de Matt Bomer, dar părea că ar fi fost anteriorul: „Battle Royale” suna mai potrivit, cum mă puteam convinge altfel decȃt revăzȃndu-l? Evident că ȋl văzusem și pe ultimul, ȋn timp ce ȋl vedeam ȋmi aduceam aminte ca da: Sarah Paulson revine ȋn dublu rol, iar John se chinuie sa moară pe teritoriul hotelului pentru a rămȃne fantomă acolo – tough luck.
Cu acestea fiind spuse, și cu chipul lui Wes Bentley ȋn minte (căci am văzut „The Final Girl” aseară) aștept cu nerăbdare să ȋl văd si ȋn noul sezon pentru că i-am văzut numele la ending credits. Atenție spoiler ahead!

Episodul debutează cu frumoasa Lily Rabe ca Shelby – mi-a fost dor de ea, ȋn sfȃrșit nu mai arată ca un hillbilly – apoi observăm că de fapt ea povestește o ȋntȃmplare ȋn care protagonistă este Sarah Paulson alături de Cuba Gooding Jr. Cȃnd a spus „she wasn’t” eu am crezut ca ȋnainte ea arăta ca Lily și acum arată ca Sarah, pentru ca pe iubitul ei nu-l arătaseră ȋncă, so tricky there, de fapt se refereau la faptul că pierduse copilul.

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Pȃnă acum totul arată bine, pare o reconstituire mai mult, ciudat de parcă ar fi un documentar și ei povestesc iar ȋn paralel arată reconstituirea dar de fapt ăsta este serialul nostru plin de scary and delicious things, povestirea „personajelor reale” dă un vibe de „inspirat din fapte reale”, ceea ce am ȋnțeles că e  –  știam vag ce e Roanoke și nu știam că despre asta este noul sezon – nu prea ȋmi stă ȋn caracter să caut obsedant despre ce va fi un următor sezon dintr-un serial preferat așa cum am văzut că dispera toată lumea pe social media.

Mai departe sunt două-trei incidente majore, cel cu cada, care m-au dus cu gȃndul la fantome, iar al doilea incident cel cu ploaia de dinți ar fi tot fantome. Ȋnsă al treilea este clar o farsă sau acei hillbillies care ȋncearcă să ȋi convingă să plece sau un cult, deși ar putea fi fantome ce pot face asta ȋn planul real, pentru că aici este AHS și orice este posibil. Acum că știu că e despre Roanoke, presupun că este colonia fantomă, pare atȃt de sobru si boring, oare cum vor putea să introducă toți actorii mei preferați și ce roluri delicioase le poate oferi ȋncȃt să ȋntreacă ce au fost pȃnă acum?

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Am văzut la sfȃrșit: Kathy Bates, Evan și Wes, I so very much miss the old season mai ales că am făcut greșeala de a revedea ultimul episod, I will so miss my f*ed up ghosts and vampires, but then again, așa se ȋntȃmplă in American Horror Story, and that’ș the fun of it.

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A brand new me

I have never been hung up on the past, with every relationship I had and with every man I have loved I have always been entirely faithful, I have accepted flaws, compromised, forgiven and lived in the present, and I will be honest: in the future. Because I always tried imagining my future with each and one of them, almost all the time I could not see it – so it frightened me – but when I did see it – I did not like it – so it frightened me even more. I have recently realized this and once with this I have also realized that I have never truly loved because I was never loved back enough for me to see that future, for me to receive all that I was giving, that real meaning of the word love, that perfect fit, body and soul.

But this is not what I wanted to talk about now, I wanted to talk about the fact that I, unlike so many people, am not hung up on the past, or on past lovers, when I start a new relationship I enter it completely, I am willing to discover that person and to give myself completely from the beginning. I am honest and even though that is rare and not advised to be today, I am honest and I do not plan on changing no matter how much I was hurt (I just got tears in my eyes, because I cannot believe I am saying this, I was on the verge of depression, and here I am acknowledging my qualities and bravely letting my thoughts free into the world).

I was brave enough, without even knowing it, to love the person in front of me, to not regret my past even though it had hurt me so, to not compare, and to not judge, something that they cannot say. One might say it is because men and women are different, because men when they fall in love they fall rare and deep and when are hurt and that relationship breaks they rarely give up on it and hardly are open and willing to start another, then why do they hurt those that come latter? Maybe they were also hurt, worse than them, but they are strong enough to let go and be open and allow themselves to love again from the first moment, why should that latter suffer and wait and hope for him to be able to let go of his past and love her? Or worse what if that does not happen? what if he is such a coward and gives up on her after she has fallen for him because he pretended he let go of his past, or pretended it did not affect him?

Again, I have drifted away from the topic: I am amazing amaziing amaziiing!!! Because I have this amazing ability to heal myself after so much pain, so much misery, so much nothingness, I have risen and I will never be taken down again!

However, even though I have changed, I will still keep those qualities from above, but this time, I will not just feel, I will also think. I will not give myself to just anyone, they will have to earn it, they will have to prove there is no other one are hung up on, if I am going to give myself to them, they better worship me! They better be willing to give me a love like no other, not meaningless sex, not the 3 date rule, not the spending money on you so you better put out, not let’s keep being together hopefully I can feel something for you, not the I am at an age when no one else will look at me or I don’t want to bother to try be with someone else: NO!

I have raised my standards now, and for once in my life: I am not afraid of being alone (better alone than lonely in a relationship), I embrace my solitude; I accept it and I will make the best of it!harrison_solitude

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Simply “The Great”

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Just look at this!

When you see something like this, honestly now, do you actually think “oh, yeah! I’m gonna totally wait ’till December”? Are you friggin’ shitting me??? Tobey Maguire next to that delicious looking Carey Mulligan, in the back that even more delicious Jack, aaa, I mean Leonardo DiCaprio, and that fine hulky guy that seems like the most absolute Tom Buchanan I will ever set eyes on: “What kind of row are you trying to cause in my house?” – Absolute! I can only hope they’ll give us more of that Buchanan rage.

I can’t wait for “The Great Gatsby”, and even though patience is not one of my virtues, all that I can do is wait! But that one moment will be so magical, it almost brings tears in my eyes when I think about it.

UPDATE: like 2-3 weeks ago I saw the trailer for “The Great Gatsby” on the big screen. it was awesome!!!! I can only imagine how awesome it will be in 3D. can’t wait!!!! 😀