Anxious Insecure

Sometimes I wonder what I would have been like if I were normal. What would that have felt like… probably the way it feels in the very rare moments in my life in which I’m serene, at peace, and only focusing on the present moment. Wouldn’t that be nice? To live in the present moment…

The Game Is Rigged

What game you might ask? The game of life, friends. There’s no equality, there’s no equal opportunities, there’s no people doing their jobs properly unfortunately. Not all of you can get a pro at customer service like me, unfortunately. But this is not about customer service, and not even about recruiters not capable to read…

Outsider

Always looking in on them from the sidelines,an outsider… never fitting in anywhere. Never finding the people she belongs with… part of her belongs with the ones miles away, back home. But they can only comfort her for a minute, that’s not enough to contain her… to contain her ever expanding spirit. She can’t make…

My ‘Love’ Life – a game of Pokemon

My best relationships were always the ones I had in my head. Because in my head the men were always perfect, they never got the chance to fuck it up in tangible reality, they always remained an ideal. Either started from a side-eye glimpse on public transport, on the street or an event or any…

Halloween is coming. Then winter and the holidays… During the cold season is when I feel the loneliest, but then again… if I think of the Spring and Summer I had, those weren’t pink either 😂. … how I wish to do things with people, to have people close to me that understand me and…

I’ve been hearing something that I like the sound of. … So they say when your soul is ready for enlightenment you will have a lot of karmic interactions that need to be solved and dispersed. … so it made me think that’s like most of my interactions with people. always strong feelings, extremely bad…

What do you see?

What do you see when you look at this photo? Do you also see the picture of desolation? Or do you only see an average ‘pretty girl’? Does the outfit and red lips make you think I broke so many hearts that night out? I didn’t. Cause the world doesn’t work that way. The world…

About Religion

I know, shocking that I can think for myself. I was born to shock and I’m living up to it every day, and I’m not referring to shocking by dressing crazy or whatever else soft boys (people) find shocking about girls nowadays. I’ll shock you to your core and make you think for yourself, hopefully….

if i were to die now, absolutely no one would give a fuck. NO ONE My spirit would, cause it chose this reincarnation for a reason. I don’t fully know the reason yet, but I’m hoping to find out. Preferably soon. Or maybe the reason is as plain as wanting a(nother) human experience. and if…

what is it that makes a person worthy of love? . . I guess we shall find out in a future life. … After in this one we’ve managed to pay back all that bad karma. Let the suffering and toil of this one burn it all way. … so that we may be reborn…