almost a year since my last post, and yet, not much is changed. she is still not one of them, one of the people. she is still misunderstood. still only her and her stories, and her stories are still unwritten.
however. some where written, but not the ones from lucid dreams, or day dreams, or even from her life. but the ones coming from pure inspiration, from nothing… not nothing actually… but from her imagination, her creativity, that has been nourished for so many years by books, films, series, dreams.
she needed the discipline to make her imagination obey her human nature. to pick the unwritten fruits of the universe and give them shape, make them real.
this year was special. she directed for the first time. something that was truly, wholly hers, came to life. people joined in and they helped her make it real. people helped. people made her feel like she wasn’t a mistake.
at the brink of fully giving up, she was fully saved. paradox. there was no other way meant for paradox girl. how else?
they also helped her see now more than ever that she truly is special, that other people put themselves first and it’s okay if she does that too. they told her that she has a way with words, not in an admirative way, just an observation. good lesson for her to follow the example and become an observer as well, TO KEEP HER LOVE, FEELINGS, EMOTIONS, to CARE only for things that she finds IMPORTANT. to let people take the back seat in her life, the BACKSEAT they deserve, to receive them as the LESSONS they are, as the EPISODES they are. as the MOMENTS they are. because that is what they are, she is the MOST IMPORTANT, they all have to take the BACKSEAT that was always rightfully theirs.
embrace the SELF-LOVE, SELF-INTEREST, SELF-SUFFICIENCY. but always keep your ESSENCE, your amazing, wholly and holy ESSENCE, and pour it into the mold of the FUTURE. FOCUS. CREATE. EXPAND. LIVE, baby, LIVE!
Rory, The Unloved 